Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34
Today has been more difficult. I do still feel God's peace, but I've felt myself wavering more. I find myself thinking about tomorrow and the months ahead, and I start to lose it. I wonder how long this hold will really last, if things will work about and we'll still travel this summer. Or, my worst fear of all, that it'll drag out into court closure and our case won't even be heard until October. That's when I just want to throw up, crawl into bed, and pull up the covers. And then God gently lifts my face back to Him. "Focus on me, Sarah, and me alone." My heart is overwhelmed and humbled with His love for me.
It dawned on me yesterday when I was doing my Bible study that God already knew this would happen. Before we ever saw Mia's face for the first time, before she was ever conceived, before we decided to adopt. This is part of the plan. Nothing takes Him by surprise. What an awesome God we have. When Jesus tells us not to worry about tomorrow, it's because He already knows the story. And all we have to do is trust Him for today, take Him at His word, and He will carry us through tomorrow.
Almighty God, I cannot fathom your knowledge. You knew me before my body was even formed. You knit me together in my mother's womb. And you know what the future holds because you wrote the story. And we know that love wins. We praise you Jesus and we thank you for loving us so very much. Please ease my broken heart this evening. Continue to work through the Ethiopian courts. Watch over my baby girl; tell her we love her. Help me focus on today, and help me to trust you for tomorrow. I love you. In Jesus' name, Amen.